i'm not gonna lie. play me!

lately the tone of my blog has been sad and blah.
so to change it up, let's focus on a couple of positives!

i'm not gonna lie, work is going spectacularly right now! i've been blessed with great opportunities without asking for it. i have colleagues and management that appreciate my work and acknowledge the fabulous work i do! i'll be staying with my company for at least another 8 months with a little more money handed to me on a silver platter plus i have the possibility of starting a permanent new role.

thank goodness at least i have work going for me.

i'm not gonna lie, i'm currently in the best physical shape i have ever been in my life (especially at my tender old age). the next dude that gets to sleep with me is in for a treat! hehe. 

at least i'm happy with my body. haha.

so i don't know about you, but music (and beer LOL) is my saviour! therefore, i wanted to share some music i love. enjoy!

currently on repeat. can't wait for the official video to be released!

wicked-ass Adele mash-up on Glee. 

by far 1 of the best & the choreography rocks-ass too!

plus i personally relate to these songs.

one of my faves for life

here's one to put you in the Vegas mood. let's go soon Leeshi!

HAPPY ALMOST HUMP DAY EVERYONE! 

Hope you're doing well! :)

i'm not gonna lie for the month of May

my take on guys...

i'm not gonna lie, one of the first things that crosses my mind when i see a cute or good looking guy is "is he gay?".

i rarely come across any eye candy. what the hell happened?! did they all consciously decide to move to a different city all at at the same time? i'm not gonna lie, i'm lucky if i see one cute guy in the month.

my take on working out...

i've been working out like a feen lately. i'm not gonna lie, even though i've been working out almost everyday, i swear my ass and thighs have only grown! WORKOUTS FAIL?!

my take on turning almost cougar status...

in less than 2 months i'll be turning 35! holy eff, where has the time gone?! i'm not gonna lie, when i look back to where i was 10 years ago, everything about my life is pretty much the same. WOW, I SUCK! but what better way to celebrate almost being a cougar by embracing my new age at the exact minute i turn "old" in VEGAS baby with my Asian Sensation ladies and fellow bloggers and friends: Leesh, Kat, Steph, Reni and Elisse. 

my take on life...

one of my oldest close friends just got engaged. i'm not gonna lie, while i'm incredibly ecstatic for A and R, i can't help but feel incredibly sad because of selfish reasons. he's the last of my old skool boyz to get hitched. now all of them are officially grown up! out of all of my boyz, never did i think in a million years i would be the last one left. they're all boys! i'm the only girl! shouldn't i be one of the first?! i can't even find someone to be happy with! one of them is even expecting. i'm not gonna lie, this very moment is probably one of the saddest moments of my life as i've come to the realization that i live a very sad sad sad life. i'm not gonna lie, i'm actually crying for myself at this very second. literally. i feel so pathetic and heart broken for some reason... my heart aches for what others have. you know that "creepy uncle" at fam jams?! when i think about it, i'm kinda like the "creepy aunt." ZING (on me)!

i'm not gonna lie, i live only half alive...

i'm the furthest one to this reality (via)

this is how i feel. i stand alone as everyone else moves forward. (via)

photo challenge. day 4. + April's "i'm not gonna lie"

day 4

four photos from my past

VanCity 2002

halloween 2003(?) - amnesia party

goodbye 2005! welcome 2006!

2008: Yup, Raptors' Andrea Bargani is tall!

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and here's (the expression i say the most) blog series: 

"i'm not gonna lie..."

i'm not gonna lie, one of the reasons why i enjoy carrying babies is because it's giving me an upper body workout. and i enjoy playing with kids cuz it's a semi-cardio workout. haha.

i'm not gonna lie, my arms are pretty sore from holding all those babies at Jaida's birthday party yesterday. YES! mission accomplished!

i hate being smothered! damnit it, i'm not peanut butter! if you've guessed 26er, yuppers, that is who i'm talking about. i'm not gonna lie, it's really annoying me and he told me when we first started dating that he's not affectionate!

i'm not gonna lie, i miss how the ex knew the exact distance and closeness he should have with me...

i just watched Source Code last night and really really liked it! i'm not gonna lie, i want to watch it in the theatre again. not because Jake G is my number 1. it's cuz that's how much i enjoyed the movie!

i now understand why i often wake up in the middle of the night... it's because of my dreams. subconsciously, i'm in disbelief and wake myself up. i'm not gonna lie, i wish i didn't do that because most of the time, i wish my dreams were my reality.

hope all is well and you're enjoying your Sunday! it's raining in Tdot. i'm gonna make it a lazy one!  

and literally it is. i can feel my ass physically growing today.

"i'm not gonna lie" for March

BOOOOOO! i've been missing in (blog) action. MY BAD. i have yet to figure out how to balance a new relationship with all my social networking activities. 26er still doesn't understanding why i'm always on my iPhone4 while he's around. silly boy! it's cuz my iPhone4 is the love of my life! LOL!

here's my 1st blog post after an unwanted blog break:

my "i'm not gonna lie" for March...

i'm not gonna lie, i'm annoyed at myself for not keeping up with my blog and the blogs i follow. i want to do it! but i've been sucking lately with my leisure time management skills. if you have any tips on how to manage this, please let me know!

last week, 26er pointed out our 2 month anniversary... wow, really? never in my life in any relationship have i ever made note of a 2 month mark. i'm not gonna lie, i'm waiting for him to get sick of me so he won't want to see me everyday. damn it 26er! hurry up and get annoyed with me. LOL!

i'm not gonna lie, i still want to be with 26er, but i don't want to see him EVERYDAY! he's annoyed me frequently this past month, but i finally braved up and confronted him about it. now let's see if he's mature enough to work on it.

shame on me! i'm dating a 26-year-old! what do i really expect from a guy who is 26 years old?! his behaviour is fairly typical of a 26 year old (and an only child). i'm not gonna lie, i shouldn't be complaining if i've decided to be in a relationship with a 26-year-old!

the weirdest thing has happened to me... i haven't really been drinking. WTF? often i've been having only 1 alcoholic beverage in a sitting. AND i don't mind. AND i don't care to have more. AND i've been nursing the 1 drink. AND i've been completely sober when i'm out OUT! i'm not gonna lie, i'm shocked! i think this may be a sign to go on a drinking hiatus.

fine fine. i kinda lied. i did have a little more than 2 glasses of wine last night. i'm not gonna lie, i enjoyed it. i believe this may be a sign to therefore go on a drinking hiatus from everything BUT wine. haha.

i'm not gonna lie, i probably haven't been drinking an abundance of alcohol lately because i've been putting too many other things in my mouth! such as...

yummzy - Southwest Salad at Turtle Jacks Muskoka (my new fave resto)

heavenly dessert -  fire & ice at Turtle Jacks

peach bellini (the best bellini ever) at Earls Restaurant

peanut butter chocolate mini cupcake from Starbucks

Starbucks minis (2 lolli-cakes: birthday cake & rocky road, salted caramel square)

  

that's it for now. hope you're all enjoying your weekend! 

HAPPY SATURDAY!!

February's "i'm not gonna lie"... + silly pics

i don't know about you, but this week has been exhausting. work has been kickin' my ass and kickin' it HARD! so much to do with so little time to do it... and why is it that my computer always chooses to work extra slow when there's an abundance of deadlines to be met at the same time period?!?! you suck work computer!

my way of releasing stress today is by writing this "i'm not gonna lie" post which is long overdue. enjoy!

i'm not gonna lie begins NOW.

i have no idea what to write. i'm not gonna lie, i've pretty much been staring at a blank blog post for quite some time and did not type a single word for the past few days. i'm not gonna lie, i started writing this post on hump day.

i know most of you agree when i say, Valentine's day is over rated. even though i completely believe this, i'm not gonna lie, i'm disappointed 26er does not care for the hallmark holiday and we will not be celebrating my awesomeness "us" in any form. i'm not gonna lie, it would've been nice to do a little something for our 1st Valentine's day together then i wouldn't care to ever celebrate Vday again. (that's if our relationship actually lasts...)

in reality, i don't deserve anything for Vday... i'm not gonna lie, i still have very strong feelings for my ex. but i swear, i'm totally infatuated with 26er. i'm not gonna lie, he's shaping up to be the best boyfriend i've ever had.

there's a girl at work i dislike a lot. and pretty much everyone does because she's crazy! i recently discovered a newly developed rumor she may be bipolar which by the way was not at all a creation of mine. i'm not gonna lie, i'm content that many of my colleagues are not fond of her. i may build on the negative energy focused on her, but at least i don't start it! ha!

i'm not gonna lie, i've been slacking on my food ground rules which are listed here and it's only been the 1st week. wow, i really lack any will power when it comes to slightly eating healthy! tsk tsk on me. i swear tomorrow is the true start date. last week was a false start... besides, one of the stupidest ideas is to start a (kinda) diet on Superbowl Sunday. DUH, Maureen!

i'm an idiot! i made plans to have dinner tonight with the crazy girl i dislike at work. i'm not gonna lie, i kinda feel sorry for her because she's crazy, weird and has no friends, but now i'm regretting making plans with her. at least we're going to Joey's - a restolounge i'm very fond of. i'm not gonna lie, i think i deserve a good Samaritan award today!

even though i suck at eating slightly healthy, at least i'm starting to get back to the old workout feen Maureen. 2 almost back-to-back rigorous 1 hour (each) cardio workouts on Mondays nights, yoga Tuesday nights and even more yoga (probably hot), now that i've bought 15 classes for only $25 and have a yoga partner to join. i'm not gonna lie, i'm quite proud of my aching self.

i'm not gonna lie, i don't have anything else to say. so with that, i'm signing off with some silly westside crew photos.  

Happy almost Valentine's day everyone! (Bah humbug!) Have a wonderful weekend!

Leeshi w/ her mini onion ring

snarly Mike

surprised Reg

picky Leeshi

silly couple

my 1st "i'm not gonna lie" of 2011!

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! 

i hope 2011 has been treating you good and it stays that way! new beginnings mean new opportunities and new opportunities are chances for great things. here's to great things happening for you and me this year!

this is my 1st blog post of 2011 and i thought a great way to start blogging this year is to kick off with an i'm not gonna lie blog post. 

 so here it is... 

i give you my 1st blog entry of the year... 

my 1st i'm not gonna lie of 2011...

my new year started off SO GOOD, but ended TERRIBLY. i hate feeling so high and feeling so low all in the same day. i'm not gonna lie, i don't think my heart can it take anymore :(

i'm not gonna lie, it looks like mildly-crushing-on guy has been promoted to crushing-on guy. but due to his age we are now calling him 26er. big ups to my boy Randi for giving mildly-crushing-on guy his new nick name.

they say "time heals all". i'm not gonna lie, i think some things just never heal.

i'm not gonna lie, i'm pretty shocked my whole family is accepting of my cousin being gay. i'm not gonna lie, i didn't think they were so liberal.

i'm not gonna lie, 2 coworkers last month told me i say i'm not gonna lie very often.

i'm still not in the mood to see all my girls in one sitting. i'm not gonna lie, i'm still annoyed from the last time.

if you follow me on twitter, you may know i had a freakout attack just before Christmas. it was odd because the night leading to the freakout was such a fun night with my old skool boyz. expensive alcohol was ever-flowing free of charge and tasty snackies were at my finger tips. i was getting hit on left, right and centre from guys of all ages and also getting props for my personality. i was receiving compliments about everything and anything from strangers and my friends. it was such an ego boost at the time, i have no idea how my big head fit in the venue. any normal person would come home feeling high, but instead i was confused of why "the dude" has completely shut me out. once upon a time, it was so great (as such) and also so good (as this)... i'm not gonna lie, it upsets me so much that he has forgotten about it all. how can old skool and new skool people put me on a pedestal and the dude who i was actually in a relationship with have such a difference of opinion?

i'm not gonna lie, i think this blog post is pretty pathetic because it has a depressing tone to it. (way to start off the year on a positive note Maureen!) thumbs down to me! boooooo!

i'm not gonna lie...

i'm not gonna lie, there's a phrase i say repeatedly and even more so when drunk. if you know me personally i say it much too often. on the advice of my real life friend and blog friend Leesh, i've decided to create my own blog series called (yup, that's right!) "i'm not gonna lie..."

so with that, i bring you the 1st edition of (tada!)

 i'm not gonna lie...

i'm not gonna lie, i still haven't folded my clean laundry from last week! now tell me who you think is the laziest of them all?!
 

i'm absolutely in love with my iPhone 4. i'm not gonna lie, i tell people it's the love of my life. it actually sleeps on the pillow next to me.

i'm not gonna lie, my snuggie confuses me. each time i try to wear it, i have to pause and think about how to put it on. i guess it doesn't help that you can fit another 2 of me in it. if you ever find kid size snuggies, please let me know!

there's a huge possibility my coworkers and friends think i'm an alcoholic. apparently, i only tweet and fbook about alcohol (and food)... i'm not gonna lie, today is my 1st day sans alcohol after 6 consecutive days of drinking beer. the main reason i'm beer-free today is because i'm scared to gain a beer belly. i wish drinking beer would cause a different body party to grow... how awesome would it be if we gained "beer titties" from beer binging?!?!

i'm not gonna lie, i was a little annoyed with my blind date this past Sunday. who agree's to meet someone for the 1st time with their "Movember" mustache? plus i like my conversations two-way. i'm not gonna lie, first impressions make an impression on me.

i'm not gonna lie, i'm also annoyed with my almost blind date i was suppose to have tomorrow. he takes too long to return text messages and it's taking too long for us to make actual plans. that's it, i'm cutting him off! i'm much too busy to deal with this nonsense. apparently, he used to be hot in high school, but i don't remember thinking he was hot anyway when i met him in the summer. haha.

i'm not gonna lie, i procrastinate when responding to the almost blind date's text messages.

i'm not gonna lie, i don't really want to date right now.

i'm not gonna lie, i'm gonna be a scrooge again this year. but if someone has a Festivus celebration, i'm all for it!