that vegas feeling!

i'm not gonna lie, life's been pretty difficult lately. and with that, i'm on a mission to turn my frown upside down and absorb my life with all things happy! WOOT WOOT!

first happy thought that comes to mind is VEGAS BABY! if you often visit my blog then you know Vegas is almost around the corner, 37 days away from today to be exact.

this Vegas trip is a blogger travel meet up, an epic 35th birthday celebration for 2 of us and a let loose kind of trip! the group of us are better known for our self-proclaimed name - ASIAN SENSATION!

big ups to Reni for creating our banner!

not only do we have a banner, Leesh also created a AS2011 LV cd to hype us and get us into the sin city mood! mission accomplished Leesh! i'm so loving the compilation and can't stop listening to it.

music compilations bring me back to the day in high school when i used create cds for my friends and as an added bonus i would list the songs on the jacket to tell a story by adding my own words and bolding the song titles.

so in honour of Vegas, here's a pull of lyrics from the songs (in order) on our AS2011 LV cd and how the vibe of our Vegas trip will probably be! 


******  

put your troubles aside and start living. throw away your problems cuz right now it's party time! 

you know my motivation. please excuse me i don't mean to be rude. shake that ass, let's lose control! we gonna rock it to the sound. yea it's getting hot in here. i'm having a good time with you.

c'mon get me on the floor, DJ what ya waiting for? watch me move hotter than the A-list.
 
I'M F*CKED UP! we came to party, everybody it's on! we came to get crunk, bottoms up.

booty movin, damnn girl... feels so good being bad, night full of sin. i like it, come on everybody just have a good time. we gonna make you lose your mind. one more shot for us, another round. please fill up my cup.

i'm a hot ride. forget about the world, i'll make you swallow your pride. take me for a ride. take me high. make it last all night, break a sweat on the floor. don't stop, keep moving. we're running shit tonight on the floor. 

live your life and stay young. 

i can be a little cocky. look at me now at the top of my throne. i'm just a holy fool baby it's so cruel. we sipping goose, we getting loose. it'll be a crime, if i didn't holla. O-M-G you caught my eye. we gonna freak some more - after party in the hotel lobby! tonight let's enjoy life. 

i might drink a little more than i should. don't care what they say. 

get busy tonight on top of the world. i'm a party and party and party. it feels so right to dance to the beat. i know how to make them stop and stare. the club can't even handle me right now. i own the night, life of the club, came to party, celebrate, go hard, run the show. that's right!

whoop whoop! rock that, run that! this where we from, the talk of the town. every time i step in the building everybody's hands go up! 

don't mess with us.

******

P.S. the above is a mish mash of the lyrics. yes the songs are in order, but the song lyrics may have be combined with other AS2011 songs to give it more of a story flow. werd? werd.

P.S.S. checkout more AS2011 posts! head over to Reni's here and Leesh's here.

photo challenge. day 10.

day 10

something beautiful

LIFE! Life is beautiful...

ya baby! i have completed another challenge! thank you SwissTwist for hosting this fun photo challenge and thank you Reni for introducing it to me! a special thanks goes out to my iphone4, my point & shoot or a friend's for taking the above photos.

by the way... not sure if you know this, but 26er and i broke up yesterday. when i'm ready, i may blog about it... maybe.

"i'm not gonna lie" for March

BOOOOOO! i've been missing in (blog) action. MY BAD. i have yet to figure out how to balance a new relationship with all my social networking activities. 26er still doesn't understanding why i'm always on my iPhone4 while he's around. silly boy! it's cuz my iPhone4 is the love of my life! LOL!

here's my 1st blog post after an unwanted blog break:

my "i'm not gonna lie" for March...

i'm not gonna lie, i'm annoyed at myself for not keeping up with my blog and the blogs i follow. i want to do it! but i've been sucking lately with my leisure time management skills. if you have any tips on how to manage this, please let me know!

last week, 26er pointed out our 2 month anniversary... wow, really? never in my life in any relationship have i ever made note of a 2 month mark. i'm not gonna lie, i'm waiting for him to get sick of me so he won't want to see me everyday. damn it 26er! hurry up and get annoyed with me. LOL!

i'm not gonna lie, i still want to be with 26er, but i don't want to see him EVERYDAY! he's annoyed me frequently this past month, but i finally braved up and confronted him about it. now let's see if he's mature enough to work on it.

shame on me! i'm dating a 26-year-old! what do i really expect from a guy who is 26 years old?! his behaviour is fairly typical of a 26 year old (and an only child). i'm not gonna lie, i shouldn't be complaining if i've decided to be in a relationship with a 26-year-old!

the weirdest thing has happened to me... i haven't really been drinking. WTF? often i've been having only 1 alcoholic beverage in a sitting. AND i don't mind. AND i don't care to have more. AND i've been nursing the 1 drink. AND i've been completely sober when i'm out OUT! i'm not gonna lie, i'm shocked! i think this may be a sign to go on a drinking hiatus.

fine fine. i kinda lied. i did have a little more than 2 glasses of wine last night. i'm not gonna lie, i enjoyed it. i believe this may be a sign to therefore go on a drinking hiatus from everything BUT wine. haha.

i'm not gonna lie, i probably haven't been drinking an abundance of alcohol lately because i've been putting too many other things in my mouth! such as...

yummzy - Southwest Salad at Turtle Jacks Muskoka (my new fave resto)

heavenly dessert -  fire & ice at Turtle Jacks

peach bellini (the best bellini ever) at Earls Restaurant

peanut butter chocolate mini cupcake from Starbucks

Starbucks minis (2 lolli-cakes: birthday cake & rocky road, salted caramel square)

  

that's it for now. hope you're all enjoying your weekend! 

HAPPY SATURDAY!!

you've got style! you've got this!

WOOT WOOT EVERYBODY!  HAPPY SATURDAY!!!! YAY, it's the weekend!

today, i bring you the new blog me... i'm not gonna lie, i'm a tad paranoid my ex had my blog URL, so tada, my blog link has been revised to lookin4maur.blogspot.com.

alright, let's move along now...

looky at what i got?! the Stylish blogger Award! thank you to my girl - Jen who gave me this award. she lives at one of the most beautiful places in the world, Hawaii. i've been reading her blog for quite some time and noticed we have many similarities. we both don't like raw celery, hallmark commercials can make us cry, we used to play the flute, random old people love talking to her - random old and any age people love talking to me, we both tend to ignore the boys we are crushing on and we both blog - that's how we met! i highly suggest you check her out! she can be found at jenkakio.com. she's entertaining, refreshingly honest and can provide insight to anything. if you're interested in Hawaii, make up, life, food, tv & movies... actually if you're interested in anything, her blog may interest you!

the simple rules of this award are:

1. thank and link back to the person who gave you the award. (yup, yup! did that above.)
2. share 7 things about yourself. (yup, yup! will do that below.)
3. tag 15 10 other bloggers and let them know that you’ve given them an award! (yuppers! this will be at the bottom of this post. i'm suppose to tag 15, but i don't think 15 bloggers regularly read my blog.)

7 tid bits about moi:

1.  i don't have cable. if i'm lucky i can get up to 5 channels from whatever signals are reaching my bedroom. this is probably why i'm never home. i can be seen watching TV at 26er's or friends' houses.
2. i often remember my dreams. i'd say for the past 2 weeks, i've dreamt about my ex 90% of the time. no, nothing sexual... i think... LOL! but it's a little awkward when i have 26er sleeping next to me especially when i do #3 on this list! 
3. i talk, laugh, scream, tell jokes, make sound effects while asleep. luckily for me, 26er sleeps like a log and when he hears me, he rarely understands what i'm saying.
4. i sprained both my ankles twice. this is probably why i randomly "almost" fall at times for no apparent reason while walking. i'm not tripping over anything, i'm not walking on an incline, i'm literally walking on a flat surface in a straight line and then all of a sudden, i will stumble over air. haha.
5. my facebook account has been deactivated since the 1st of January. however, i found a loop hole on the iPhone 4 to fbook creep without actually logging back in to fbook.
6. from all the guys i have dated, i'd count 5 of them as actual bfs. 2 of them i met through work and the other 3 through friends.
7. i've been up since 7:30 this morning and have barely left my bed this a.m. except to pee! LOL!

tag! you below bloggers are it!

1.  leesh at the Blarkness Chronicles
2. kat at life in progress
3. reni at in her shoes
4.  jenn at publicly private
5. steph at a simple kind of life
6. elisse at fur elisse
7. kasey lynne at a window to my heart
8. luckie at cranberry portage
9. alex at chewy's choices
10. ryan at fluffy 2 fit

have a great weekend! hope you're enjoying it and doing whatever you please!

anonymous comments now disabled!

well well well... looks like i've opened quite the can of worms with my ex-factor post. i have received another anonymous comment for that entry.

i've said this before and i'll say it again, THIS IS MY BLOG AND I CAN BLOG ON WHATEVER I WANT TO! with that being said, i blog about things that are on my mind since i'm not a person who vocally expresses feelings. so yea, i blogged about my ex and what he texted to me. but so what?! THIS IS MY BLOG! 

i have no shame, so i'll showcase the anonymous comment in a moment. but to the anonymous person who has no balls to reveal who you are, if you have a problem with me, you're a chicken shit! own up to your opinion and your thoughts instead of commenting anonymously.

because of your tactless ways, i have now disabled anyone commenting anonymously.

oh and by the way "anonymous", here's your comment for everyone to see. since i'm sure you intended it for everyone to read...

* * *

Anonymous has left a new comment on my post "the ex-factor":
"Let this be a huge reminder to everyone to think twice before sending this chick a text."

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who ever you are, you should go find yourself some balls.

anonymous...

before i get to the meat of this post, i just want to apologize to all my fellow bloggers. i haven't had the chance to read or comment on blogs for the last couple of weeks. i'm hoping to go on a blog binge tomorrow. hopefully, i'll be caught up soon!

now to the post...

i received an anonymous comment regarding my ex-factor post. at first when i read the comment, i was insulted, but now i believe this person is playing devil's advocate. judging by some of the questions, this person doesn't know me well and has probably never had a one-on-one or heart-to-heart conversation with me... when i have heart-to-heart conversations with my close friends, many times it's one-sided. one-sided meaning, i allow them to pour his or her heart out and i mainly listen. it's not that i don't want to share details about my life, i'm simply a private person resulting from getting burned back in high school. it forever changed my outlook in revealing details of my life - lesson learned and lesson carried forward in my life.

instead of publishing this anonymous' comment, i've decided to write an entry about their questions, just in case you too may be questioning me... see below my answers in purple.

Anonymous has left the following comment on my post "the ex-factor":

Do you think it's fair for you to be with someone while still having feelings for another?

to be honest, it probably isn't. but i know there are people out there in a marriage or in a relationship (a happy one) and still have feelings for someone else. this doesn't mean he/she doesn't have stronger feelings for the person he/she is currently with. it IS possible to have feelings for more than one person simultaneously. i'm living proof that it's possible.

Did you take some satisfaction that your ex texted you?

i'm not gonna lie, of course i did! who wouldn't?! so yes, i was somewhat satisfied when my ex texted me! he threw me to the curb! and now i know he thinks of me and compares me to other girls after me.

Do you think you're using your current bf? Or are your feelings sincere?

i know i'm not using my current boyfriend. i enjoy spending every minute with him. i see him everyday. every touch and even when he accidentally touches me, gives me goosebumps and i physically feel a tingle throughout my whole body. the thought of him makes me smile and the minute we leave each other, i already i want to see him again. i know my feelings are sincere.. not any guy can make me feel this way... 

Do you think your current relationship has a future?

at this very moment, i would say yes because we are very happy and in the honeymoon phase. but in reality he's 8 years younger than me. even though i live this part of my life on the fly, i know in my heart, eventually i would like to get married and "maybe" have children. he probably doesn't want these things for quite some time. even though i may not want these things right now, he probably doesn't want them until years after i do...

Why do you separate your relationship from your friends? Do you have something to hide? 

no, i don't have anything to hide. as mentioned in the beginning of this post, i'm a private person. without going into too much detail, back in high school i mentioned (once) who i was going on a date with and then everything blew up in my face. at that moment, i vowed to never mention too many details of my love life. it's for the better i keep this to myself until i'm certain i'm comfortable with revealing that part of my world. my terms, always.

Do you know what you want from your life?

does anyone truly know what they want from life? if they do, do they really get what they want? just because people may know what they want from life, doesn't mean they will get it.

i know certain things i want from life, but i don't know everything i want... i know i want a good job that i enjoy. i know i want to be surrounded by good, loving people. i know eventually i want to be married and maybe have children... at this time, i'm not certain i really do want children. like i said, i know some things i want from life, but not everything. ultimately, i just want to be happy. 

What are you going to do when you encounter your ex again with or without your current bf?

if you read my comments from my last post, if he pulls the same crap again, i'm gonna call him on it... he told me he didn't want to be friends. so why is he speaking to me as though we are? i really can't give you a definite answer for this question, i can't predict the future.

If I had to read between the lines in your post, I think you're tempted by your ex despite knowing how destructive he could be to you.

yea, i very well know he's destructive. hence why i made the conscious decision to leave him in the past. what makes you think i'm tempted though? did you conclude this because if you were in the same situation you would be tempted? i guess in these circumstances many people would be tempted. yes, my ex texted me that it was good to see me and i was his best sex, but this doesn't mean the feeling is mutual.

(via)

January 2011 photos + a surprise in the mail!

finally, i can finish the new year blog challenge! 

the final prompt is...

a photo of myself in 2011 (solo or with other people, things i love, etc.)

taken by 26er on Sat, Jan 22/11

w/ Mason Lucas (1 day old) on Sun, Jan 23/11

at work on Mon, Jan 24/11

and that concludes the new year blog challenge hosted by the beautiful Reni who also happens to be my sista-from-anotha-mutha who lives in the country just south of me but west coast time. 

P.S. Reni! look what i received in the mail today! YAY! thank you, thank you for the thoughtful wishes while away on your Costa Rica vacay. love it!

hand written thoughtfulness (on the back) by Reni while in Costa Rica

2011 excitement + fashion + travels

 

if you've been keeping tabs on my blog this year then you know i'm completing the new year blog challenge - courtesy of the beautiful, fricken fabulous, sweetheart and fellow blogger, Reni. It's not too late to join in. you can find it here. i'm half way through the challenge.

prompt 6 is...

what am i looking forward to in 2011?

asian sensation 2011 (more deets at the bottom of this post) 
summer, heat, patio weather
discovering the uncertain future i have with 26er 
 

the next question is...

fashion style or trends i'd like to see in 2011?

i would like to be a stylin, trendy girl, but unfortunately i am not. i don't read or look at fashion mags. i don't keep up or am infatuated with any celebs and what they're rockin. i'm pretty much a plain jane, but a plain jane who sports it well. currently, i am loving the skinny jeans. if anything, that's the fashion trend i don't want to ever end. all i need to do is purchase more skinnies.

prompt 8...

my travel plans for 2011.

Asian Sensation 2011 in viva Las Vegas (via)

  asian sensation 2011: a fun-filled, crazy-ass, a little over a weekend in Vegas (baby) with my (asian) blogger friends: Leesh (also known in real life), Steph (also known in real life), Reni (so far only known over the internet space), Elisse (also only known over the internet space). we hope to grace sin city with our (hot) presence during the birthday weekend Reni and i share plus we're planning to add a 6th asian blogger to the mix which has yet to be determined.

paradise (via)

  somewhere beautiful, hot and relaxing: my very good VanCity friend, Cristina and I usually travel somewhere each year. last year was Hawaii. this year, maybe Cabo? our travel plans are based on us! whoever joins will have to succumb to our schedules. it's all about the Cris and Maur show, but everyone is welcome!

NorCal (San Jose & San Francisco), Vancouver: these are the cities i dream about moving to. these are the home cities of people i love. and these are cities i fell in love with when i first laid eyes on them.

i left my heart in San Franciso - July 2009

on a boat in Vancouver - August 2010

1st thoughts of 2011

GOOD MORNING BLOG WORLD! 

i've been up since 5am on this Monday, January 3rd, 2011 morning and i have today off. it is so like me to be awake at the crack of dawn on a day when i don't have to go to work. damn me!

if you read my previous post, you know i'm completing Reni's new year blog challenge. here's question #1...

what was the first thing that came to mind after waking up on new year's day?

two things came to mind... something new (mildly-crushing-on guy who is now known as 26er) and something old (the dude).

for the low down on both guys... you will find mentions of 26er here and here. and you will find details of the dude here, here, and sad/bad mentions of him here, here, and here.

sometime last week i mentioned on twitter that i may be "using" 26er. i recently realized exactly what i'm using him for... he's the something new and the only thing right now that is capable of making me forget about the something old...

(via)

the new year blog challenge

cheers 2011! it's the opportunity for a fresh start... so i welcome you with open arms and am excited to discover what this new year will bring! please, please, pretty please bring me some excitement. my life needs to be turned up a couple of notches! LOL!

with this new year, my fellow blogger/twitter/fbook friend Reni created the new year blog challenge. she is currently enjoying the sun, sand and water in Costa Rica. hope you're enjoying yourself Reni and having a grand time! you deserve it! 

here are the 10 questions/prompts of the new year blog challenge. feel free to join in on the fun!

1.  what was the first thing that came to mind after waking up on new year's day?

2.  what does new year mean to you?

3.  what does your horoscope say on new year's day?

4.  what is your favorite inspirational quote for new year's?

5.  three things you'd like to accomplish in 2011.

6.  what are you looking forward to in 2011?

7.  fashion style or trends you'd like to see in 2011?

8.  your travel plans for 2011.

9.  what would you do differently this year?

10.  a photo of yourself in 2011 (solo or with other people, things you love, etc.)

i've decided to complete this challenge randomly. meaning i may do a prompt here and there or maybe a couple a day or maybe a few, but i'll be done by the end of this month. stay tuned for maur...

day 1. my 30 days.

tada! welcome to day 1 of my 30 days blogging challenge...

recent photo of myself + the meaning of my blog

back in the day i used to blog on live journal, but i don't count that as a real blog. back then, all my entries were cryptic and that defeats the true purpose of a blog.

"a little rough around the edges" is a total opposite direction of that live journal. here, i'm stripped bare and try to reveal all. if you personally know me, you know i'm an individual who does not like to express my feelings in fear of embarrassment and judgement... chances are you will never here me "speak" these feelings i type here. so if you genuinely are interested in learning about me and understand what i hide from the world, most likely you'll be able to read it here...

(on a side note: happy birthday mom! i love you much!)

my 30 days! and so it begins...

i just recently arrived home from btea with Leeshi who's an avid blogger. i envy her and how she's so dedicated to expressing herself through various channels. often there is so much i'd like to write and say, but don't have the courage to do it.

Leeshi told me about the 30 day blogging challenge. hopefully, this will help keep me open and teach me a thing or 2 about myself. i also hope it gives you a better understanding of the person i am today. tomorrow marks day 1 of my 30 days. it's a random day which is appropriate since i'm all about random lately. coincidentally, my day 1 happens to also be my mom's birthday! :)

wish me luck!