i'm not gonna lie. play me!

lately the tone of my blog has been sad and blah.
so to change it up, let's focus on a couple of positives!

i'm not gonna lie, work is going spectacularly right now! i've been blessed with great opportunities without asking for it. i have colleagues and management that appreciate my work and acknowledge the fabulous work i do! i'll be staying with my company for at least another 8 months with a little more money handed to me on a silver platter plus i have the possibility of starting a permanent new role.

thank goodness at least i have work going for me.

i'm not gonna lie, i'm currently in the best physical shape i have ever been in my life (especially at my tender old age). the next dude that gets to sleep with me is in for a treat! hehe. 

at least i'm happy with my body. haha.

so i don't know about you, but music (and beer LOL) is my saviour! therefore, i wanted to share some music i love. enjoy!

currently on repeat. can't wait for the official video to be released!

wicked-ass Adele mash-up on Glee. 

by far 1 of the best & the choreography rocks-ass too!

plus i personally relate to these songs.

one of my faves for life

here's one to put you in the Vegas mood. let's go soon Leeshi!

HAPPY ALMOST HUMP DAY EVERYONE! 

Hope you're doing well! :)

the randomness in my head...

it was confirmed today that muffs (aka crazy, obsessive girl at work) was the one who started the rumor that 26er and i were secretly dating. granted it was true, but if she really believed that, i seriously believe i would be dead by now... by her! conclusion: she did not believe her own rumor, but unfortunately some people at work did believe her. 

i am reliving the same hell i suffered in 2010 in 2011 with the exception of everything happening a few months later and in scrambled order. 2010's hell = broken heart, rear-ended car accident drama to deal with, mid-life crisis freakout then an even more broken heart. This year's hell = mid-life crisis freakout, broken heart, an even more broken heart, rear-ended car accident drama to deal with.

living hell is the best diet!

i'm so feeling the new Drake album - Take Care (Deluxe Version). the whole album has been on repeat since i owned it on Saturday. Take Care and the bonus track are my jams! 

i still have no idea why 26er thinks i "stooped low"... 
it's unbelievably painful knowing there's no way i can fix this...
we're not even real acquaintances...
the interaction i have with strangers i pass by are friendlier...

i need a continuous reminder to keep revisiting my happy list!
1. Traveling
2. Imported delicious snacks that no one has heard of
3. three pints of beer on an empty tummy
4. Body Jam (good life cardio all types of dance workout)
5. Organizing an event where everyone is having the time of their lives
6. Knowing that a guy has a perma-smile on his face because of me

2012, I AM READY FOR YOU! but do i really need to live through all the holiday festive crap leading up to your birth????

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fill in the blank friday!

hellz yea it's Friday! another long ass week is coming to an end. Friday always gives me the feeling of relief, relief that the work week is finally over! thank goodness.

let's start the day off with filling in some of Lauren's blanks. you too can participate. don't forget to link your entry at the end so others can check you out!

1.   The last thing I ate was  siopao. yes, you are correct. i am not speaking English. LOL! siopao are these steamed doughy buns with a meat filling in them. my mom specifically made mini versions for me. 

2.  The next thing I'd like to eat is   a hot beverage from Starbucks. i know i can't eat the drink, but Starbucks is my preferred breakfast on a work day. 

3.  The best things  are those things that make you happy. currently for me, those are body jam (dance inspired hard-core cardio workout), great music, sangria especially the "pink sangria" at the bar by my office (cactus fruit, lycee, white wine, fresh strawberries and grapes) and of course BEER! 

4.  Something that makes me supremely and utterly happy is   being at the perfect state of drunkiness where i have a perma-smile on my face all-night-long. 

5.  Sports are   entertaining to watch, but is something i don't do physically myself. however, i really do enjoy watching sports especially basketball and hockey playoffs. 

6.  I miss  "eye candy"! "eye candy" is my latest crush at work. i haven't run into him for the last couple of weeks. he makes my work day so much better when i see him.  

7.  Right now I am   stalling getting ready for work, but now that i've completed these blanks, i can get back to my regular scheduled Friday work day.

HAPPY FRIDAY EVERYONE! CHEERS!

fill in the blank friday!

this past month has so not been cool! and yesterday, for no apparent reason by mid-afternoon i crashed, burned and dropped down to an ultimate low... didn't want to be around anyone. didn't want to talk to anyone. didn't want to at least crack a fake smile. didn't want anyone to even glance my way. i was feeling torn inside and on the verge of tears just for the hell of it and carried this mood until i fell asleep. but today is a new day and finally i can say it's Friday.

hopefully starting my day with filling in some blanks may help. come, join in on this blog action. you'll find the blanks each Friday at Lauren's blog. don't forget to link up your post, so she can check it out too!

1.   The last movie I saw was  Fast Five. (well it was the last one i saw in the movie theatre.) eye candy, action and humour - what more can a girl want?! so yes, i was pretty pleased with the movie. 

2.  I want to   be happy. pretty simple, but as of late, it's been pretty difficult to attain. 

3.  Surprises are  good intentions? i don't know... i rarely get surprises (if any) so i'm having trouble recalling the feelings associated with a surprise. i think the only time i've been surprised is when someone sneaks up behind me and startles me. wow, that just sounded pathetic. LOL! 

4.  The best accessory is   a fabulous purse! 

5.  My favorite warm drink is  well lately it's been a 1/2 sweet skinny lactose-free caramel macchiato.  yes, i'm a Starbucks groupie! i think i'm going to treat myself to this drink this morning!  

6.  My favorite cold drink is  BEER! 

7.  Currently loving   the sun and the heat. after months and months of anticipation and teasing, the sun and heat have finally decided to stay a little longer than 1 day at a time. the rain still seems to be tdot's very good friend, but at least the sun seems to be fighting for some attention now. 

smile. it's almost the weekend. enjoy!  
i'll try to do the same...

 

hate love - ramblings from the heart

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this past Saturday was a pretty big day for me personally. i deleted the last of my exes' phone numbers off my mobile. the one i hate (26er) and the one i still love (the dude).

i'm not lying. i HATE 26er. how can i be such a bad judge of character?! after Saturday, i have realized he is truly delusional and not a good person. sorry, but i won't be revealing any details of what recently went down because it gets me furious and upset. just know i regret every minute i have spent with him and every minute i am forced to. i don't think i've ever hated an ex before. dislike yes. HATE no.

now why the eff do i still love the dude??! not cool, heart! not cool at all!

i'm so hating my job that i love! how is upper management working on an 18 month calendar?? hmmmm... oh wait a second, that's right, there's only 12 months in a year! idiots! they're currently running our promotions as though it's a pig pen. WHAT THE F*CK GUYS, get your effing act together quick! time is of the essence and we simply don't have time!

the other night, some random stranger on fbook messaged me to tell me i'm cute. his relationship status on fbook is "married". are you effing kidding me??! i hate guys like that! BOOOOOOOOOO!

i love Vancouver and my many friends who reside in the beautiful city. in support of my second home, i'm a Canucks fan but seriously Canucks, what the eff was up with game #3??! i hate how you let the Bruins molest you!

i love my friends, but hate how every day is a day closer to what brings us further apart. i'm slowly realizing we no longer have much in common and we won't be gaining common ground any time soon...

hair did 101

around a month ago, i trimmed my hair quite significantly. it was in such horrible shape that i chopped off 3 inches. i'm not gonna lie, it could have afforded another 2 inches off since it was in such bad condition, but i didn't want to leave the salon with a bob hairstyle. not that anything is wrong with hair bobs. i'm just afraid i'll look really young. one day maybe i'll go back to the bob. i don't mind these ones:

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so in my desperate state, i walked into a hair salon and asked if anyone was available. with my luck, yes - there was someone available in 5 minutes, but boo - he's a senior stylist. the first thing that ran through my head was "CHI-CHING! oh boy, this trim is gonna cost me an arm and a leg!"

just so you know, I'M A CHEAPIE! especially when it comes to getting my hair did. i really don't care about it. i'll let anyone cut my hair as long as it looks normal in the end. i don't know. i guess i'd rather spend my money on food and alcohol. hahaha.

with that being said, it's a big deal i saw a senior stylist even though my first instinct was to back out. but boy i'm glad i didn't! not only did he give me one of my best haircuts ever, he also gave me random helpful hair tips. HA, guess those senior hairstylists really do know their stuff! LOL!

so here are the hair lessons i learned on that night. you may already know these tips, but remember, i'm dense when it comes to hair!

1. do not wash your hair everyday as it will dry out your hair. 
2. remember, since you are not washing your hair everyday, DO NOT touch or play with it too much or it may start to look oily.
3. when washing your hair, skip your roots when applying conditioner. the roots of your hair are naturally conditioned.
4. don't tie your hair back tightly as this causes baby hair. (Leeshi, that's why we can never get rid of it!)
5. too many layers for my type of hair is not good. when drying naturally, it will dry bigger and unshapely. 

in the end, it was definitely worth seeing Sam and now he's found a regular client in me. WINNING for both of us! booyah!

i'm not gonna lie for the month of May

my take on guys...

i'm not gonna lie, one of the first things that crosses my mind when i see a cute or good looking guy is "is he gay?".

i rarely come across any eye candy. what the hell happened?! did they all consciously decide to move to a different city all at at the same time? i'm not gonna lie, i'm lucky if i see one cute guy in the month.

my take on working out...

i've been working out like a feen lately. i'm not gonna lie, even though i've been working out almost everyday, i swear my ass and thighs have only grown! WORKOUTS FAIL?!

my take on turning almost cougar status...

in less than 2 months i'll be turning 35! holy eff, where has the time gone?! i'm not gonna lie, when i look back to where i was 10 years ago, everything about my life is pretty much the same. WOW, I SUCK! but what better way to celebrate almost being a cougar by embracing my new age at the exact minute i turn "old" in VEGAS baby with my Asian Sensation ladies and fellow bloggers and friends: Leesh, Kat, Steph, Reni and Elisse. 

my take on life...

one of my oldest close friends just got engaged. i'm not gonna lie, while i'm incredibly ecstatic for A and R, i can't help but feel incredibly sad because of selfish reasons. he's the last of my old skool boyz to get hitched. now all of them are officially grown up! out of all of my boyz, never did i think in a million years i would be the last one left. they're all boys! i'm the only girl! shouldn't i be one of the first?! i can't even find someone to be happy with! one of them is even expecting. i'm not gonna lie, this very moment is probably one of the saddest moments of my life as i've come to the realization that i live a very sad sad sad life. i'm not gonna lie, i'm actually crying for myself at this very second. literally. i feel so pathetic and heart broken for some reason... my heart aches for what others have. you know that "creepy uncle" at fam jams?! when i think about it, i'm kinda like the "creepy aunt." ZING (on me)!

i'm not gonna lie, i live only half alive...

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this is how i feel. i stand alone as everyone else moves forward. (via)

fill in the blank friday!

it's friday! it's friday! IT'S FRIDAY! 

the last couple of weeks have been killer and it will continue to be like this until July. DOH! now that i have no bf  in the way, all i do is work, workout and add a dash of social by chillin with friends. i'm finding it very difficult to make time for laundry. then again, who truly makes time for laundry? haha.

anyway, let's fill in some blanks! you can too! you can find friday blanks at Lauren's blog. be sure to show some love by linking up at the end of the fill in the blank friday posts.

have an awesome weekend everyone! hope you're not drowning in work as much as i am, but i do hope you're drowning in exercise like me! hehe. bikini season is almost here... well that's if mother nature can get her act straight.

1.   What I love most about my home is    my bed! it doesn't look like much, but damn, it's mad comfy! now if only i could actually sleep for longer periods of time...

2.  I'm excited because,    tomorrow is almost here! i will be attending a Kiehl's event which will be serving us cupcakes, refreshments and also giving us a $15 GC plus i still have to pick up my $50 GC because i'm a valued customer. i love Kiehl's products. it's probably the most consistent beauty brand i have in the bathroom. and their customer service is phenomenal.  afterwards, i get to hangout with my friend Chelle, her daughter Mila and her hubby Ben by eating BBQ, drinking beer, testing out a dessert goodie plus watching the Canucks game. awesome Saturday ahead!  

3.  My preferred method for blowing off steam when I'm frustrated is     BODY JAM! i'm not about blowing off steam because my attitude all around is happy-go-lucky. i'm more about energy, laughing and smiling. jam makes me forget my worries and turns my frowns upside down. it's a dance exercise class that makes working out actually fun. all i want to do is go to the gym now. i'll even drive far to attend this exercise class. plus it works you out HARD, but you don't noticed you're working out hard because you're having a great time! i just blogged about this class last night. that's how much i love it!  

4.  Currently I am craving   peanut butter oreos. sadly, they are not available in Canada. i think a road trip across the border is required soon!  

5.  The thing I love most about my mom is     her kindness. she always puts others first even though she may not know them well. unfortunately, people do take advantage of her because she is last on her list, but she truly just cares for everyone, no matter who they are. unless they're a murderer or something like that. 

6.  If I was going to write a book about my life, the title would be     "Almost Cougar Status" LOL! i'm turning 35 this year and still single. most of my friends are married with children. the book will be about my relationship escapades and coming to terms that it's very possible i won't find the man i want to be with.   

7.  If I were to eat one thing for the rest of eternity it would be    all different kinds of french fries! potato, sweet potato, cassava. and don't forget all the jazzed up ones: poutine, tater's n cream (Lick's), fries animal style, fries supreme, etc. however, i would only want to eat fries for the rest of eternity as long as it didn't make me gain weight!  

addictions!

here's what i've been wanting more and more of lately!

the oreos in the middle!

Leeshi received all the above Oreos from her mom and she was so kind to share with me. now my fave packaged cookies are PB oreos. unfortunately, they are NOT AVAILABLE IN CANADA. so someone please send me a bunch my way and i'll love you forever and ever and EVER! personally email me at maureen.par@gmail.com and let me know you'll hook me up. i'll respond with so much thankfulness and my home address. hehe.

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this cereal i picked up at Trader Joes!

i picked up Strawberry Yogurt O's while in Chicago two weeks ago and i'm very upset i only bought one box. i'm almost out! booooo!

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this workout class, Body Jam! 

it's a dance inspired workout that makes you sweat, burn tons of calories while having too much fun. you won't even realize you're working your body to the bone! this class literally makes me want to work out ALL THE TIME! now, i'm a Body Jam connoisseur and search all over GTA (the greater Toronto area) looking for a jam class to hit every night! i'd rather jam than drink beer! what the eff?!

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this song! "Rolling in the Deep"

damn! Adele is so talented. equipped with a unique voice and sound... how can you not get hooked? i'm so looking forward to finally hearing her new album (courtesy of Leeshi and Mike).

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in short, the above is what i've been up to. 

eat. workout. music.

and maybe some beer...

photo challenge. day 9.

yuppers, i'm back from Chi-town. a future post about my weekend getaway is coming soon...

if you've been keeping up with my blog lately then you know i'm participating in this photo challenge. thanks SwissTwist for hosting the challenge!

i'm now on day 9 of the 10 days, but just so you know, the below photo WAS NOT taken by me and IS NOT my actual underwear that i have worn... i thought it would be kind of gross displaying my used panties. LOL!

day 9

my favourite set of underwear

i own these in 5 different colours/patterns and will be buying more. 

they're so comfy yet still sexy!

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fill in the blank friday!

i miss filling in the friday blanks! and yay, i finally have a friday i can do so! you too can participate on this blog friday blank filling-in fun. just stroll over to Lauren's blog - the little things we do and join us!

1.   My favorite daily responsibility is,   being neat. I rarely make a mess after anything i do. and i'll tidy up shortly after if i ever do.

2.  My least favorite daily responsibility is,   folding laundry. is this considered a daily responsibility if i don't do laundry everyday?! well in general it is the least fave of my living-tasks. clean clothes will sit "neatly" in a pile in a basket off to the side in my room for weeks. but hey, at least it's not a mess on the floor.

3.  My favorite cuisine to eat when going out is   sushi. i love how i can stuff my face with this stuff and not feel fat after devouring a ton of it!

4.  My favorite cuisine to prepare at home is    nothing! i'm not gonna lie, i haven't cooked anything for the longest time. i live on my own and find it hard to grocery shop for only 1 person. therefore i feel it's hard to cook for myself especially since i feel full after cooking. so once the meal is ready to be served, there's no one home to enjoy it. i tend to cook when i'm in a relationship and my newbie boyfriend hasn't deserved that privilege yet. ha! i am however, very good at eating!

5.  Andy Warhol said that everyone is famous for 15 minutes. My claim to fame is    really nothing...

6.  If I could have 3 wishes I would wish    for: 1) so much money that i could buy whatever whenever for whomever. 2) to find a love who i want to spend the rest of my life with and him feeling exactly the same way about me... 3) health (and a smacking fit, sexy body!)  

7.  My biggest pet peeve is   flakers. i don't care if you bail, no sugar-coating needed. if you just don't feel like seeing me, you simply feel lazy, etc. then just tell me. i won't cry over it. there's no need for the pre-bail. i like it straight-up. so please cut to the chase and tell me so i can move on with other things to do.

HAPPY FRIDAY EVERYONE! HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND!

photo challenge. day 7.

day 7

four things that make me the happiest

sunshine

traveling

friends & family

alcohol!

photo challenge. day 6.

day 6

five of my favourite flowers

(to be honest, i don't know flowers... these were the first 3 flowers that came to mind and then i had to google for 2 more! LOL!)

orchids (via)

lilies (via)

roses (via)

hydrangeas (via)

lilacs (via)

photo challenge. day 5.

day 5

five of my favourite / most used cosmetics

top row (L-R): DaLish lip/cheek balm, True Religion perfume, Kiehl's lip balm
middle: MAC concealer stick

bottom: DaLish cream to powder eye shadow duo

photo challenge. day 4. + April's "i'm not gonna lie"

day 4

four photos from my past

VanCity 2002

halloween 2003(?) - amnesia party

goodbye 2005! welcome 2006!

2008: Yup, Raptors' Andrea Bargani is tall!

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and here's (the expression i say the most) blog series: 

"i'm not gonna lie..."

i'm not gonna lie, one of the reasons why i enjoy carrying babies is because it's giving me an upper body workout. and i enjoy playing with kids cuz it's a semi-cardio workout. haha.

i'm not gonna lie, my arms are pretty sore from holding all those babies at Jaida's birthday party yesterday. YES! mission accomplished!

i hate being smothered! damnit it, i'm not peanut butter! if you've guessed 26er, yuppers, that is who i'm talking about. i'm not gonna lie, it's really annoying me and he told me when we first started dating that he's not affectionate!

i'm not gonna lie, i miss how the ex knew the exact distance and closeness he should have with me...

i just watched Source Code last night and really really liked it! i'm not gonna lie, i want to watch it in the theatre again. not because Jake G is my number 1. it's cuz that's how much i enjoyed the movie!

i now understand why i often wake up in the middle of the night... it's because of my dreams. subconsciously, i'm in disbelief and wake myself up. i'm not gonna lie, i wish i didn't do that because most of the time, i wish my dreams were my reality.

hope all is well and you're enjoying your Sunday! it's raining in Tdot. i'm gonna make it a lazy one!  

and literally it is. i can feel my ass physically growing today.

photo challenge. day 3.

day 3

three of my fave pairs of shoes

my versatile 3-in-1 black boots

my casual chuck-Ts

my homey comfy slipper-booties

photos say a thousand words

we all know i've been blog slacking lately in every sense... rarely writing, rarely reading and therefore rarely commenting. i have so much catching up to do. once in a while i find a minute to read here and there a post or two from my favourite blogs and i came across Reni's post about this photo challenge. it's the perfect challenge to keep me actively blogging in no time. thank you to my sista in Portland, Reni for introducing it to me and thank you SwissTwist for hosting it.

here are the 10 prompts for the photo challenge:

Day 1: A photo of your view from your office window / from your desk.

Day 2: A picture of two things you love, together.

Day 3: Three of your favourite pairs of shoes (you know I just HAD to throw shoes in!)

Day 4: Four photos from your past.

Day 5: Five of your favourite / most used cosmetic products.

Day 6:  Five of your favourite flowers.

Day 7: Four things that make you happiest.

Day 8: Three photos of someone smiling. You and/or someone else.

Day 9: Your favourite set of underwear, you don't HAVE to be wearing it (*hint hint).

Day 10: Something beautiful.

day 1

my view from my desk