"i'm not gonna lie" for March

BOOOOOO! i've been missing in (blog) action. MY BAD. i have yet to figure out how to balance a new relationship with all my social networking activities. 26er still doesn't understanding why i'm always on my iPhone4 while he's around. silly boy! it's cuz my iPhone4 is the love of my life! LOL!

here's my 1st blog post after an unwanted blog break:

my "i'm not gonna lie" for March...

i'm not gonna lie, i'm annoyed at myself for not keeping up with my blog and the blogs i follow. i want to do it! but i've been sucking lately with my leisure time management skills. if you have any tips on how to manage this, please let me know!

last week, 26er pointed out our 2 month anniversary... wow, really? never in my life in any relationship have i ever made note of a 2 month mark. i'm not gonna lie, i'm waiting for him to get sick of me so he won't want to see me everyday. damn it 26er! hurry up and get annoyed with me. LOL!

i'm not gonna lie, i still want to be with 26er, but i don't want to see him EVERYDAY! he's annoyed me frequently this past month, but i finally braved up and confronted him about it. now let's see if he's mature enough to work on it.

shame on me! i'm dating a 26-year-old! what do i really expect from a guy who is 26 years old?! his behaviour is fairly typical of a 26 year old (and an only child). i'm not gonna lie, i shouldn't be complaining if i've decided to be in a relationship with a 26-year-old!

the weirdest thing has happened to me... i haven't really been drinking. WTF? often i've been having only 1 alcoholic beverage in a sitting. AND i don't mind. AND i don't care to have more. AND i've been nursing the 1 drink. AND i've been completely sober when i'm out OUT! i'm not gonna lie, i'm shocked! i think this may be a sign to go on a drinking hiatus.

fine fine. i kinda lied. i did have a little more than 2 glasses of wine last night. i'm not gonna lie, i enjoyed it. i believe this may be a sign to therefore go on a drinking hiatus from everything BUT wine. haha.

i'm not gonna lie, i probably haven't been drinking an abundance of alcohol lately because i've been putting too many other things in my mouth! such as...

yummzy - Southwest Salad at Turtle Jacks Muskoka (my new fave resto)

heavenly dessert -  fire & ice at Turtle Jacks

peach bellini (the best bellini ever) at Earls Restaurant

peanut butter chocolate mini cupcake from Starbucks

Starbucks minis (2 lolli-cakes: birthday cake & rocky road, salted caramel square)

  

that's it for now. hope you're all enjoying your weekend! 

HAPPY SATURDAY!!

oooooh... aaaahhhh... mmmmm... yay!

oh boy it's Sunday already... which means Monday is tomorrow... which means tomorrow is the start of yet another work week. i enjoy my job, but oh how i wish i was a non-working millionaire! i wouldn't care about Mondays. actually, no days of the week would matter. i truly believe i'd make a fantastic millionaire! i would volunteer, donate money, spend money on my family and friends. don't i sound like a pretty close to perfect millionaire to you??!

anyway, hope you're enjoying your Sunday! for your blogging pleasure, here are some random photos that can make me go "oooooh'', "aaaahhhh", "mmmmm" or "yay"! 

these wonderful desserts have made my belly content:

Lindt chocolate ice cream - I SWEAR 1 of the BEST ice cream flavours EVER!

"the cookie" at Shoeless Joe's: fresh from the oven baked cookies served in a skillet, topped w/ ice cream, chocolate chips and drizzled w/ caramel and chocolate sauce

Lindt chocolate ice cream cake (not as good as the ice cream on it's own, but still tasty. the ice cream alone is the best because you need to appreciate the Lindt flavour w/o it being masked with other goodies

judging by the above pics, you probably think i haven't been true to my food rules (found here), but in reality i have been with the exception of the potato rule. i swear, starting today, i'll only have fried potatoes once a week! 

check out Pam and Matt's baby shower cake(s):

everything is edible except for the display signs (yes, the shoes are, the baby bottle, the car, etc. it's all edible!)

yes! beer!

cheers to double pints!

roll up the rim to win is back at Tim Hortons! i haven't won in 2 years, but now i'm winning approximately 70% of the time! YAY!

moi w/ my 1st roll up win this season!

that's it for now! enjoy your Sunday!

you've got style! you've got this!

WOOT WOOT EVERYBODY!  HAPPY SATURDAY!!!! YAY, it's the weekend!

today, i bring you the new blog me... i'm not gonna lie, i'm a tad paranoid my ex had my blog URL, so tada, my blog link has been revised to lookin4maur.blogspot.com.

alright, let's move along now...

looky at what i got?! the Stylish blogger Award! thank you to my girl - Jen who gave me this award. she lives at one of the most beautiful places in the world, Hawaii. i've been reading her blog for quite some time and noticed we have many similarities. we both don't like raw celery, hallmark commercials can make us cry, we used to play the flute, random old people love talking to her - random old and any age people love talking to me, we both tend to ignore the boys we are crushing on and we both blog - that's how we met! i highly suggest you check her out! she can be found at jenkakio.com. she's entertaining, refreshingly honest and can provide insight to anything. if you're interested in Hawaii, make up, life, food, tv & movies... actually if you're interested in anything, her blog may interest you!

the simple rules of this award are:

1. thank and link back to the person who gave you the award. (yup, yup! did that above.)
2. share 7 things about yourself. (yup, yup! will do that below.)
3. tag 15 10 other bloggers and let them know that you’ve given them an award! (yuppers! this will be at the bottom of this post. i'm suppose to tag 15, but i don't think 15 bloggers regularly read my blog.)

7 tid bits about moi:

1.  i don't have cable. if i'm lucky i can get up to 5 channels from whatever signals are reaching my bedroom. this is probably why i'm never home. i can be seen watching TV at 26er's or friends' houses.
2. i often remember my dreams. i'd say for the past 2 weeks, i've dreamt about my ex 90% of the time. no, nothing sexual... i think... LOL! but it's a little awkward when i have 26er sleeping next to me especially when i do #3 on this list! 
3. i talk, laugh, scream, tell jokes, make sound effects while asleep. luckily for me, 26er sleeps like a log and when he hears me, he rarely understands what i'm saying.
4. i sprained both my ankles twice. this is probably why i randomly "almost" fall at times for no apparent reason while walking. i'm not tripping over anything, i'm not walking on an incline, i'm literally walking on a flat surface in a straight line and then all of a sudden, i will stumble over air. haha.
5. my facebook account has been deactivated since the 1st of January. however, i found a loop hole on the iPhone 4 to fbook creep without actually logging back in to fbook.
6. from all the guys i have dated, i'd count 5 of them as actual bfs. 2 of them i met through work and the other 3 through friends.
7. i've been up since 7:30 this morning and have barely left my bed this a.m. except to pee! LOL!

tag! you below bloggers are it!

1.  leesh at the Blarkness Chronicles
2. kat at life in progress
3. reni at in her shoes
4.  jenn at publicly private
5. steph at a simple kind of life
6. elisse at fur elisse
7. kasey lynne at a window to my heart
8. luckie at cranberry portage
9. alex at chewy's choices
10. ryan at fluffy 2 fit

have a great weekend! hope you're enjoying it and doing whatever you please!

anonymous comments now disabled!

well well well... looks like i've opened quite the can of worms with my ex-factor post. i have received another anonymous comment for that entry.

i've said this before and i'll say it again, THIS IS MY BLOG AND I CAN BLOG ON WHATEVER I WANT TO! with that being said, i blog about things that are on my mind since i'm not a person who vocally expresses feelings. so yea, i blogged about my ex and what he texted to me. but so what?! THIS IS MY BLOG! 

i have no shame, so i'll showcase the anonymous comment in a moment. but to the anonymous person who has no balls to reveal who you are, if you have a problem with me, you're a chicken shit! own up to your opinion and your thoughts instead of commenting anonymously.

because of your tactless ways, i have now disabled anyone commenting anonymously.

oh and by the way "anonymous", here's your comment for everyone to see. since i'm sure you intended it for everyone to read...

* * *

Anonymous has left a new comment on my post "the ex-factor":
"Let this be a huge reminder to everyone to think twice before sending this chick a text."

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who ever you are, you should go find yourself some balls.

anonymous...

before i get to the meat of this post, i just want to apologize to all my fellow bloggers. i haven't had the chance to read or comment on blogs for the last couple of weeks. i'm hoping to go on a blog binge tomorrow. hopefully, i'll be caught up soon!

now to the post...

i received an anonymous comment regarding my ex-factor post. at first when i read the comment, i was insulted, but now i believe this person is playing devil's advocate. judging by some of the questions, this person doesn't know me well and has probably never had a one-on-one or heart-to-heart conversation with me... when i have heart-to-heart conversations with my close friends, many times it's one-sided. one-sided meaning, i allow them to pour his or her heart out and i mainly listen. it's not that i don't want to share details about my life, i'm simply a private person resulting from getting burned back in high school. it forever changed my outlook in revealing details of my life - lesson learned and lesson carried forward in my life.

instead of publishing this anonymous' comment, i've decided to write an entry about their questions, just in case you too may be questioning me... see below my answers in purple.

Anonymous has left the following comment on my post "the ex-factor":

Do you think it's fair for you to be with someone while still having feelings for another?

to be honest, it probably isn't. but i know there are people out there in a marriage or in a relationship (a happy one) and still have feelings for someone else. this doesn't mean he/she doesn't have stronger feelings for the person he/she is currently with. it IS possible to have feelings for more than one person simultaneously. i'm living proof that it's possible.

Did you take some satisfaction that your ex texted you?

i'm not gonna lie, of course i did! who wouldn't?! so yes, i was somewhat satisfied when my ex texted me! he threw me to the curb! and now i know he thinks of me and compares me to other girls after me.

Do you think you're using your current bf? Or are your feelings sincere?

i know i'm not using my current boyfriend. i enjoy spending every minute with him. i see him everyday. every touch and even when he accidentally touches me, gives me goosebumps and i physically feel a tingle throughout my whole body. the thought of him makes me smile and the minute we leave each other, i already i want to see him again. i know my feelings are sincere.. not any guy can make me feel this way... 

Do you think your current relationship has a future?

at this very moment, i would say yes because we are very happy and in the honeymoon phase. but in reality he's 8 years younger than me. even though i live this part of my life on the fly, i know in my heart, eventually i would like to get married and "maybe" have children. he probably doesn't want these things for quite some time. even though i may not want these things right now, he probably doesn't want them until years after i do...

Why do you separate your relationship from your friends? Do you have something to hide? 

no, i don't have anything to hide. as mentioned in the beginning of this post, i'm a private person. without going into too much detail, back in high school i mentioned (once) who i was going on a date with and then everything blew up in my face. at that moment, i vowed to never mention too many details of my love life. it's for the better i keep this to myself until i'm certain i'm comfortable with revealing that part of my world. my terms, always.

Do you know what you want from your life?

does anyone truly know what they want from life? if they do, do they really get what they want? just because people may know what they want from life, doesn't mean they will get it.

i know certain things i want from life, but i don't know everything i want... i know i want a good job that i enjoy. i know i want to be surrounded by good, loving people. i know eventually i want to be married and maybe have children... at this time, i'm not certain i really do want children. like i said, i know some things i want from life, but not everything. ultimately, i just want to be happy. 

What are you going to do when you encounter your ex again with or without your current bf?

if you read my comments from my last post, if he pulls the same crap again, i'm gonna call him on it... he told me he didn't want to be friends. so why is he speaking to me as though we are? i really can't give you a definite answer for this question, i can't predict the future.

If I had to read between the lines in your post, I think you're tempted by your ex despite knowing how destructive he could be to you.

yea, i very well know he's destructive. hence why i made the conscious decision to leave him in the past. what makes you think i'm tempted though? did you conclude this because if you were in the same situation you would be tempted? i guess in these circumstances many people would be tempted. yes, my ex texted me that it was good to see me and i was his best sex, but this doesn't mean the feeling is mutual.

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the ex-factor

it's no lie, i have feelings for my ex. chances are, you know this if you've read my blog recently. and yes, it's no lie, i'm currently in a relationship with someone else (26er) while having feelings for my ex. but you probably know this too.

let me give you some background about the ex also known as “the dude”. the last time i had contact with him was this past November and at the end of it, he had no interest in being friends... no interest in even being acquaintances... i was confused, upset and hurt but most of all furious because he could dismiss me with no recall of why we got together in the first place. despite all i was feeling that very moment, there was no denying my heart still felt for him even though my mind decided it was time to move on. 

if we wanted to or not, we both knew sooner or later we would run into each other since we have mutual friends.

fast forward to the weekend that just passed, it was now that time...

initially i contemplated not going to 3 of my friends’ birthdays because there was a chance the dude might be there. living my life in fear of seeing “him”?! that’s no way of living life and a no-show was unacceptable to the birthday celebrants especially since one of them lives in NorCal and was only in town for a short while. plus he told me about his birthday celebration over a month ago. 

so we devised a plan – ignore the dude and pretend i didn’t know him. done and DONE! he wouldn’t be the first i did this to... besides 26er is rolling with me tonight.

so... ummm... yeaaaaa... the plan didn’t go according to plan. come on now Maur! execution never goes as planned! 

yup, the dude showed up and instead of ignoring me too, he tried to get my attention and talk to me all night. at one point he was showing me something on his BB and 26er saw at a distance and assumed i was giving my number because everyone knows when i’m drunk i give my number away like candy. but duh, i don’t do that when i’m spoken for. haha, silly 26er. 

oh and by the way... i didn’t inform 26er that an ex would be there that night. i don’t know. was i suppose to? would you?

but it’s all good... i made sure everyone there was aware i had a man without any annoying PDA and i was not giving the dude the time of day, but he didn’t care AND his friend (that he arrived with) didn’t care either because he was hitting on me all night.

i’m not done. 

when the dude thought i left, apparently he text me a couple of times because he didn’t get the chance to say bye and proceeded to tell me that when he saw me a few minutes later.

i didn’t say bye to the dude or his friend when i left, but i did check the dude’s texts after. in summary, he text me; it was "good seeing me"... AND... 

***WARNING*** THIS IS WILL BE TOO MUCH INFORMATION*** SO DO NOT READ ANY FURTHER IF YOU DON’T WANT TO KNOW TOO MUCH INFO! 

he also text me; “for the record, the sex was amazing. probably the best. we have good chemistry, honestly awesome!”

and with that, all the progress i made in getting over him was set back tenfold. i’m not gonna lie, i miss him like crazy and think of him often when i’m with 26er. and even more so after this weekend.

side note: his friend also sent me a direct message on twitter during the night, which didn’t make sense since i couldn’t hear him all night. however, i know it was sexual in context because this wouldn’t be the first time he’s DMed me.

side note #2: i know i’m not overreacting about the dude’s interactions because our mutual friend (who was not there cuz she’s pregger but her hubby was present) text me the next day to let me know her hubby informed her the dude was acting dumb about me all night.

side note #3: by the way, 26er did end up surprising me with flowers and dinner for Valentine's day.

February's "i'm not gonna lie"... + silly pics

i don't know about you, but this week has been exhausting. work has been kickin' my ass and kickin' it HARD! so much to do with so little time to do it... and why is it that my computer always chooses to work extra slow when there's an abundance of deadlines to be met at the same time period?!?! you suck work computer!

my way of releasing stress today is by writing this "i'm not gonna lie" post which is long overdue. enjoy!

i'm not gonna lie begins NOW.

i have no idea what to write. i'm not gonna lie, i've pretty much been staring at a blank blog post for quite some time and did not type a single word for the past few days. i'm not gonna lie, i started writing this post on hump day.

i know most of you agree when i say, Valentine's day is over rated. even though i completely believe this, i'm not gonna lie, i'm disappointed 26er does not care for the hallmark holiday and we will not be celebrating my awesomeness "us" in any form. i'm not gonna lie, it would've been nice to do a little something for our 1st Valentine's day together then i wouldn't care to ever celebrate Vday again. (that's if our relationship actually lasts...)

in reality, i don't deserve anything for Vday... i'm not gonna lie, i still have very strong feelings for my ex. but i swear, i'm totally infatuated with 26er. i'm not gonna lie, he's shaping up to be the best boyfriend i've ever had.

there's a girl at work i dislike a lot. and pretty much everyone does because she's crazy! i recently discovered a newly developed rumor she may be bipolar which by the way was not at all a creation of mine. i'm not gonna lie, i'm content that many of my colleagues are not fond of her. i may build on the negative energy focused on her, but at least i don't start it! ha!

i'm not gonna lie, i've been slacking on my food ground rules which are listed here and it's only been the 1st week. wow, i really lack any will power when it comes to slightly eating healthy! tsk tsk on me. i swear tomorrow is the true start date. last week was a false start... besides, one of the stupidest ideas is to start a (kinda) diet on Superbowl Sunday. DUH, Maureen!

i'm an idiot! i made plans to have dinner tonight with the crazy girl i dislike at work. i'm not gonna lie, i kinda feel sorry for her because she's crazy, weird and has no friends, but now i'm regretting making plans with her. at least we're going to Joey's - a restolounge i'm very fond of. i'm not gonna lie, i think i deserve a good Samaritan award today!

even though i suck at eating slightly healthy, at least i'm starting to get back to the old workout feen Maureen. 2 almost back-to-back rigorous 1 hour (each) cardio workouts on Mondays nights, yoga Tuesday nights and even more yoga (probably hot), now that i've bought 15 classes for only $25 and have a yoga partner to join. i'm not gonna lie, i'm quite proud of my aching self.

i'm not gonna lie, i don't have anything else to say. so with that, i'm signing off with some silly westside crew photos.  

Happy almost Valentine's day everyone! (Bah humbug!) Have a wonderful weekend!

Leeshi w/ her mini onion ring

snarly Mike

surprised Reg

picky Leeshi

silly couple