day 18. then & now.

today's prompt for my 30 days is:
a picture of me from last year + this year + how i've changed since then

in honour of this post, i decided to put up photos of myself from 2009 and 2010 wearing the same dress, the same sunglasses AND the same shoes. LOL!

THEN

- semi-employed
- often somewhere else other than Toronto
- carefree, relaxed and happy
- fatter :P

NOW

- i have a full-time job and a part-time job
- toronto-bound, unable to travel as much
- heartbroken, fairly stressed and confused
- skinnier

this post was extremely difficult to write because it's resurfaced emotions i try so hard to lock away. now that it's written, it's pretty apparent that i'm the opposite of what i was last year. wow, many (little) changes but i'm not sure it's for the better (except for the job status and the skinny part...). they say things happen for a reason and i have to trust that they really do even though no big things ever happen to me.

time goes by very quickly and i need it to slow down. i'm running out of time to meet someone, to gain momentum in my career, to own a home, to travel the world, to eventually be a mom, to happily spend the rest of my life with that guy...

i'm a natural planner but not when it comes to me living. all this time i've been living in the moment and waiting patiently to see where fate takes me. but now i'm doubting my life strategy and possibly regretting how i've lived my life. have i been wrong all these years? here i am, sitting in the sidelines as i watch everyone around me and eat their dust.